Even though, I don't look pretty and I own a pear like shape body but I know how to cherish and respect people around me definitely. I appreciate all those small little things that my friends and family members do for me, sometimes without them.. I don't know how to keep myself alive. I have awesome friends and a happy family.
I'm back to single life! I feel fresh, because there will be no more disappointments, heartbreaks, arguments ,sleepless nights and no more expectation for the other partner. and I have all the freedom I want. But, deep in me, kind of regretted my actions. I should know a guy personality and characters before I get attached to him. Now I know my mistakes and once bitten twice shy will never do it again. I'm over it, from the way he replied and actions have proven everything. In this relationship, I realized that I deserve much more than what he had given. I tried. He tried. But things don't seem to work out. Lack of communication, compromising and understanding.. Perhaps he is still young and need more experience, I am not trying to say I'm experienced but our perceptive of love is different. In a week time, I shouldn't change the other party unless they are willingly to do, I know he had make changes but it's not there yet. All along, I have been changing him into a guy who's up to my expectation but months after months I witness him struggle but still.. not there yet. In another words, the kind of man I wanted is someone, who can understand,joke, go crazy with me and definitely love me and prove me wrong when I make ridiculous assumptions.Maybe we are not really suitable all this while we are trying to compromise and compromise, let me ask you, how long can we compromise?
Frankly, both parties are at fault, when a relationship screwed up it'll be our responsibilities. You know what, what hurt the most is not losing your bf/gf but they don't fight to keep you. Think back, it could be the right choice to end. He can find someone who is meant and just right for him because now his heart belongs to someone he has yet to meet. I am definitely not one of his kind.. anymore
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